Trying To Do The Write Thing

It’s hard for me to publish what I write.

Actually, it’s hard for me to allow myself to write what I want to write.

Here’s the thing, when it comes to reading articles online, the first thing I look at is the source. Mainly: does this author/site have the credentials to talk about this topic.

My facebook news feed is full of “articles” from not-so-credible hosts. A lot of lists from Buzzfeed, “relatable” essays from college students on The Odyssey Online, or a bunch of political rants from opposing party blogs.

I’m over clickbait. I’m over cheap, disposable words. And I’m really over op-ed pieces that are essentially just complaining about a hot topic using big words.

I just don’t want to add to the noise.

But I’m conflicted. We all have something to say, right? I mean, I feel like we’ve always been told that “the world needs to hear what you have to say.” So how am I supposed to know when to publish or if it’s just what your grandmother would call “racket”?

What topics do I have authority over? What opinions of mine should reach others? What do I have in my head that “the world needs to hear”?

That’s why I haven’t written for a while. I’ve wanted to–I’ve ached and itched for it–but I could never pull the trigger.

So after some thought, here’s what I’ve come up with:

The most important thing to me in my writing is honesty. To tell my story in an authentic way. To share an experience of mine and its corresponding feelings in the hopes that it might connect with someone and helps him feel less alone or broadens her view of the human experience (really I just wanted to use that phrase because it sounds sophisticated AF). 

At most, I want what I create to mean something, to make you think, to inspire. And at least, I hope it can connect or encourage in some way.

So here’s to more words.

*raises glass (don’t worry mom, it’s just a Coke)